Thank You...

Sometimes I see the world outside of everything.

Outside of the hurt.

Outside the pain.

Outside of you.

Somehow, I almost managed to let you destroy me,
But I saw the light at the end of the tunnel and I made it through.

What I can’t get past though, is the memories.

I often question the reasons why…

Why did I stick around after knowing the things you did?

Why did I chose to let myself get caught up, knowing you weren’t the person you claimed to be?

For what reason did I allow myself to get thrown into your whirlwind of bullshit when I had so much more going for myself?

But, I don’t blame you. No.

See, it was my fault because I saw the brick wall before I crashed into it and I thought I could knock it down.

Now I know, I was only fooling myself and you..

You were just along for the ride.

I’ve learned that the mistakes I made with you were choices that I chose to make.

And I know that what I learned with you were lessons God wanted me to learn.

So no, I don’t blame you. I thank you.

Thank you for letting me learn and grow. Thank you for all the bullshit you put me through.

Because now I can use my love on someone who deserves it, instead of wasting it on you.