Music, Image and Everything Inbetween

It's not apparent, I know. Nor is it that obvious; unless of course you know me personally.

Truth is, I KNOW I WAS BORN TO SING!

Not just for the sake of fame. Not just because I sound good. But because, it's ALWAYS been in my HEART.

To me, there is a difference between just someone who can sing and someone who is a singer.

Someone who can sing; true they sound good, but do they feel it or is it just something that they do because everyone else says they sound good doing it. It's NOT their passion.

A singer is someone whom actually feels the music inside of them. Sometimes, tears roll down their faces because they are that emotionally attached to their craft. They loose themselves in the music; let it take them over.

Does that make any sense?

For me, its not about the fame, the lights or the riches. Those are man given perks. Having a voice, TRUE VOCAL TALENT (without the auto tune or studio enchancements) is a gift from God. A gift that should be used to spread joy, peace, happiness... to touch hearts.

That is why I love music! That is why I want to do music! That is why music is my life!

But I am beginning to learn that most of the industry ( as far as women are concerned ) is 80% looks and 20% talent.

If you have that tight body, wear skimpy clothes, and can give off enough sex appeal then your voice doesn't have to be perfect. They have computer equipment that will make you sound like an angel.

I'm not saying that all the women in the industry are talentless, but a lot of those that have the talent go overlooked or get picked over for the one who'd rather walk around half naked to get attention instead of use their talent.

There is nothing wrong with changing your image or upgrading yourself, but when your image overpowers your talent then it's no longer about what song you're going to sing next or what your next album will be like. It's more along the lines of; whats is she going to have on today? What part of her body will she expose tonight? What hair color will she choose next?

I applaud Solange for cutting off her hair and making the statement that her hair is not what makes her. That it was something that she felt was given too much attention. I could never, WOULD never do that because my hair is like an extention of me, but I got the message behind what she did.

When you put too much effort into your image, people tend to lose sight of your purpose.

Its one thing to look good, but its another thing to TRY TOO HARD!!! And lets face it, some of us try to hard!

Maybe I've said too much. Maybe I haven't said enough!

If you read this, I don't care who you are, I don't care if you never come back to my site again; please leave a comment or an opinion. I would love feed back!

UMMM...

Ok, so... yeah...

I kinda slacked on posting here because I've been on my tumblr ( http://lyrickaine.tumblr.com/ ), but I'm going to do my best to come post on here, too!

So.. I guess today I realized that if I make small changes everyday then it will eventually start to show within my life. With the small changes that I've made over the past few days I've seen a few changes in myself. Now that I have time to just take "me time" ( kids at school, mom working again ) I've had the oppurtunity to do some soul searching. I'm figuring out the things I really want and the things I really need.

Before I go to sleep or whenever I wake up the next morning and have time to sit down and think, I go over my day and think about what I did that I could have not done and what I didn't do that I could have done and I then try to do something that I didn't do the day before. Whether it be cleaning, dancing, the way I ate, the things I ate, if I wrote in my journal or read my bible. Whatever it was that I felt I could've left alone or that I felt I could have done I try to weed out the things I don't need to do and incorporate the things I need to do.

Is this making any sense? LOL!

My life is headed for major changes! Big things are going to happen so I've got to start preparing myself now. The more I know, the better I become, the easier it will be to make the transition!

Love, Peace & Urbanism! ♥

NEW BEGINNINGS!

Monday will start a new!

I will be blogging more and I have a few things that I want to start doing!

Just a heads up for those of you who do pay attention!

Peace, Love & Urbanism!

Thank You...

Sometimes I see the world outside of everything.

Outside of the hurt.

Outside the pain.

Outside of you.

Somehow, I almost managed to let you destroy me,
But I saw the light at the end of the tunnel and I made it through.

What I can’t get past though, is the memories.

I often question the reasons why…

Why did I stick around after knowing the things you did?

Why did I chose to let myself get caught up, knowing you weren’t the person you claimed to be?

For what reason did I allow myself to get thrown into your whirlwind of bullshit when I had so much more going for myself?

But, I don’t blame you. No.

See, it was my fault because I saw the brick wall before I crashed into it and I thought I could knock it down.

Now I know, I was only fooling myself and you..

You were just along for the ride.

I’ve learned that the mistakes I made with you were choices that I chose to make.

And I know that what I learned with you were lessons God wanted me to learn.

So no, I don’t blame you. I thank you.

Thank you for letting me learn and grow. Thank you for all the bullshit you put me through.

Because now I can use my love on someone who deserves it, instead of wasting it on you.

Day I : NO TWITTER!!

I decided yesterday that I was going to put myself on Twitter restriction. No Tweeting for at least 2 to 3 days, but I feel like I might be able to go longer because those that I really want to talk to I can contact outside of Twitter.

The reason behind this is, I follow mostly all of my favorite people in the entertainment industry. I watch them tweet all day about all the crazy wonderful things they are doing and it made me stop and think! I said to myself; SELF... isn't that where you want to be? Aren't they doing the same things y0u want to do? Well... YEAH!

So that made me start to wonder... if I'm busy following them on Twitter, reading all the things they're talking about doing then how am I going to get where they are?? In that moment, I decided that I was going to take time and focus more on what I want to do and where I want to go!

Thus, I decided to leave Twitter alone for a few days and get my mind right!

So far, so good! We'll see how the next couple of days go!!!

Let's Get One Thing Straight!!

Sometimes I am mistaken as someone whom people can frequently run over. It's like I draw people to me who think that because I am nice and because I like to help those people whom I can help when I am able, that it is okay to use me for their benefit...

I know that I am a reflection of the people I hang around, talk to, associate with, etc., and that if I want things around me to change then I need to change the people around me and my enviornment. These things, I am doing, but there are still those who know that I because I am a very giving person that tend to think that because they've known me for so long that its okay for them to treat me like a welcome mat from time to time.

Well, needless to say... I'M SICK OF IT!

I've tried my hardest not to be a bitch! I've tried my best not to step on people or do unto others what I don't want done unto me, but it seems like thats where a lot of people want me to go.

Will I go there? NO!!!

I'm not going to change my personality or my kindness to conform to what others might want me to be, but what I will do is start cutting A LOT of you off!

I am 28 years old! YES! 28!

I've lived a lot of my life in the shadows of others, being shy, not going for the things I want to go for because I was too scared of rejection. Now that I've come to a place in my life where I'm past all of that, people want to continue to try and bring me down, but I won't let them!

If you think I've changed and you don't like the changes I've made then DON'T DEAL WITH ME! Simple as that! I'm not here to please you! I'm not here to make you happy! I'm here to please God and make him happy! I'm here to take care of my two boys and make them happy! I'm here to live out my dreams and make myself happy!

I do my best to add bring joy into others lives and I hoped that it would be the other way around as well, but I see that it isn't and so now, if you don't add to my joy then you have no reason to be around me, talk to me or talk about me for that matter!

DELETE! You're CANCELED! You have been DISMISSED! KICK ROCKS!

For those of you who know me and respect me and my kindness, Thank you!

for those of you who are just now getting to know me and for those of you who may become future friends or associates, please take heed to whats being said here!

I am the most generous and probably one of the nicest people you will ever come across! Don't take my kindness for weakness or my generosity for stupidity because once I find out that you're only around to use me, I will as I stated about half way up the page; CUT YOU OFF!

Thanks for reading! Have a nice day and be blessed!

Is It Really Going To Feel Like This For A While??

I'm just sitting here thinking about some things and I wondered...

Is it really going to feel like this for a while?

Thoughts constantly going, waiting and knowing, but not really knowing when?

Visions forseen as the present, but they're really the future; at the same time I know I'm in that exsistence...

What is it that has me miscombobulated like this?

My mind is there, my body is here and my soul is somewhere near.

Am I crazy? Or is it that I've always lived on the other side and I'm just now opening my eyes and starting to reallize that I've been there all along?

Sometimes, I wonder...